New Beginnings

I am officially back in the work force. It's been a whirlwind few days, but I made it through the tough two, relatively unscathed. I am nursing a nasty cold, though I'm not surprised given the emotional stress I placed on myself this past week. The early morning starts in freezing temps probably haven't helped either. It was hard leaving Felix. Really hard. The first day, he didn't take it too well. Neither of us did. I made a point of being extra strong, for his and Angus' sake. Then in the afternoon, when I picked him up, the tears bubbled over. He looked so tired, so quiet, so traumatised. Angus, on the other hand, was a picture of happiness. His new preschool has ticked all the boxes for the little big man and on this count, I am thrilled. Day two was another difficult departure. Again, I was forced to detach myself from the emotion of the situation and just do what I needed to do. Therefore the relief that flooded through me when I arrived to pick Felix up and he was playing contentedly, dissolved some of the anguish and guilt I had been feeling. Day two, was a better day.

Work itself was surreal. Getting up to speed with changes, sorting out my workspace and trawling through the 5000 odd emails (!) consumed most of my time. And after only two days, it felt like I had never left. I do love the company I work for, the people make it all the more special and I could not have felt more welcome upon my return. I feel the next couple of months will be about fine tuning. The drop off's. The pick up's. The hours in the day and making the most of them, in order to feel like I am contributing the best of myself to my role. All I can do is try.

It was my beautiful Mama's birthday yesterday and of course, I didn't get to see her, due to being at work. So today, the boys and I spent quality time with her at home, playing, singing and feeding the tamest of tame birds. My parents have a plethora of birdlife in their garden and they know when they visit, they always receive the good stuff. Magpies, lorikeets, kookaburras, butcher birds, crested doves, the list goes on. Feeding them, provided some much needed moments of calm with the boys. It could be a coincidence, but I have a feeling the two days of care have caught up with us all. I'm looking forward to the downtime with my boys, until work next week.