For the first time in ages, we spent the entire day indoors. The change of season has finally caught up with me, in the form of a bad head cold. The boys both seem to be on the precipice of a cold also and the weather refused to offer up anything other than dark skies and drizzle. A day at home definitely in order. Physically, I am zapped. I feel weak, fuzzy, decrepit. Emotionally, I couldn't feel better. Ordinarily, a day trapped inside, mountains of washing and sickness rife, would leave me stressed and disillusioned. Not today.
Today, we played and cuddled. Watched Tv and snuggled. Read books and coloured in. Danced and indulged in a rare afternoon nap... all 3 of us. I reflected on even more beautiful photos captured in my parents garden, yesterday afternoon. And a candid shot taken by my sis-in-law on the weekend, of Felix in my brother's akubra hat. Just can't help but smile when I look at such images. And even though the boys didn't completely share my calm state of mind for the duration of the day, they were exceptionally good, for a gloomy day indoors.
At this point, I'm in a state of limbo. I realise in the next week I will need to make some decisions. I know these decisions won't be easy and they will undoubtedly impact our little family going forward. I'm at a crossroads in my career, if I can honestly call it that. A career. Right now, I'm not even sure I know what my career should be. If I've even started on a genuine career path. So many questions pondered, so few answers acquired. I stumbled across a sun dial in my parent's yard, they have lots of quaint stone features scattered throughout their garden. This one has been around for years, but I've never truly thought about the words... or even properly read them. Yesterday I embraced them... 'Grow old along with me the best is yet to be'. The right decision is just waiting to be made. I can feel it.