Lately, I've been feeling rather blah. I'm not sure I even like that description... blah... but it's simple and easy and when I say it out loud, it sums up how I actually feel. It has resulted in more frustration, impatience and snappiness than I care to think about. Because things just seem harder, right now. The silly part is it doesn't take much to swing me either way. Completely in control and confident, to red hot stressed out and overwhelmed.
I do realise it is just a low point and that once I'm back to full health and the weather is consistently warmer and I actually get the chance to catch up with some of my girls, it will all become much brighter. It is such a fine line Mama's walk every day. The worry of guilt, fear of failure and desire for acceptance. Versus the joy of experience, fun of involvement and warmth of love and satisfaction. I think I live the full gamut on a daily basis. That's a mighty crazy day, by anyone's definition. That is why it is so important to treasure these moments, captured today, discovering my two little guys squeezed into the washing basket. Cool runnings style. The fact it all turned pear shaped just moments after I took the shots is inconsequential. I only have to look at these to know how very lucky I am.