Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Limbo

For the first time in ages, we spent the entire day indoors. The change of season has finally caught up with me, in the form of a bad head cold. The boys both seem to be on the precipice of a cold also and the weather refused to offer up anything other than dark skies and drizzle. A day at home definitely in order. Physically, I am zapped. I feel weak, fuzzy, decrepit. Emotionally, I couldn't feel better. Ordinarily, a day trapped inside, mountains of washing and sickness rife, would leave me stressed and disillusioned. Not today.


Today, we played and cuddled. Watched Tv and snuggled. Read books and coloured in. Danced and indulged in a rare afternoon nap... all 3 of us. I reflected on even more beautiful photos captured in my parents garden, yesterday afternoon. And a candid shot taken by my sis-in-law on the weekend, of Felix in my brother's akubra hat. Just can't help but smile when I look at such images. And even though the boys didn't completely share my calm state of mind for the duration of the day, they were exceptionally good, for a gloomy day indoors.


At this point, I'm in a state of limbo. I realise in the next week I will need to make some decisions. I know these decisions won't be easy and they will undoubtedly impact our little family going forward. I'm at a crossroads in my career, if I can honestly call it that. A career. Right now, I'm not even sure I know what my career should be. If I've even started on a genuine career path. So many questions pondered, so few answers acquired. I stumbled across a sun dial in my parent's yard, they have lots of quaint stone features scattered throughout their garden. This one has been around for years, but I've never truly thought about the words... or even properly read them. Yesterday I embraced them... 'Grow old along with me the best is yet to be'. The right decision is just waiting to be made. I can feel it.






12 comments:

  1. It's so wonderful that your mind and mood have not succumbed to your physical meltdown.
    You sound like you're in a great place regarding what will be with work.
    Makes me smile for you.
    :-)

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  2. Lovely post. I am so glad you can feel that the right decision is so close. What a wonderful place to be in.
    I hope you are feeling better soon. Cat xox

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  3. Love those days every so often...minus the head cold! Beautiful photos, love the sun dial saying, I got asked (AGAIN) today what am I going to do for work now, have I found a job?? NO, waiting for it to hit me in the head...the path is clearing...very exciting!!

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  4. I hope you and your little ones feel better soon.

    Decisions. Crossroads. New opportunities.

    Future is waiting for you. Good luck with whatever you choose to do!

    Abbie

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  5. Gorgeous post. Lovely words on the sun dial, funny how you've really just noticed them right now at the very time when you needed a pick-me-up! They've been waiting for you : the best is yet to be : )
    Aren't those kind of days inside with the kids the best medicine when you feel blah! Hope you feel better soon. Alison x

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  6. What a happy snap! And gorgeous flowers too. It's an indoorsy day here today, raining and windy and miserable. Loving it... Hope you're feeling better soon... gxo

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  7. Oh Julie. I really feel for you. Ah, the *career*. That's one on the list of 'I must get around to writing that' posts. A hard one. I hope you are feeling a bit more chipper for the weekend and that the weather improves. Hang in there, my friend. It will work out. Just watch. J x

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  8. Lovely pictures - and good luck with upcoming decisions. I'm now following :)

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  9. Wow, I have been in your place and it is hard but somehow fate works in ways unknown to us and everything falls into place. I will be thinking of you!

    Take care and drink lots of tea!

    Best wishes,
    Natasha.

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  10. Oh i hope you are feeling better soon. All the best with the decision making i am sure it will all work out for the best. take care of you. xx

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  11. When I read the last sentence, my heart did a little skip. You first. I (hope) I'm following close behind.

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  12. I can feel it too! Love that sun dial. And whatever decision you make, it will be a good one. And you will feel good when the decision is made!

    xx

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