This week has been a wild old one. The weather, the behaviour, the moods. Just all round scattiness. And it's made me uneasy. I genuinely love what I do. Relish in the moments, big and small. Feel so incredibly fortunate to have the opportunity of being home with my boys. I'm a lucky gal... and I know it. But the relentless nature of what I do, every so often, gets me down. Becomes too much. Too intense. Too suffocating. Just knowing when and how to breathe at times like this, is essential. Trying to stay rational and centred, is an added bonus.
We spent a lovely day with my Mama today. Sure, we had a couple of meltdowns along the way. But overall a really enjoyable walk around the harbour, some lunch, an icecream and even catching a bit of street theatre. Then, getting on the bus to come home, a lady was rude to me. She pushed past me, Angus and a sleeping Felix in the stroller, as I struggled to navigate the tight entrance to the bus. Muttering something in a cranky tone as she went. I wondered in that instant, had she ever had children or does she have grandchildren? I know for certain, my Nana would never and my Mama wouldn't treat anyone that way. So when I approached her once I'd boarded the bus and she was in the process of whinging to another passenger about 'mother's with prams'... I saw red. I confronted her on whether she honestly had a problem with my pram and she snapped coldly, something about 'just wanting to get on the bus'. So I called her a 'nasty old woman' and went back to my seat.
She would have been in her sixties, so not really that old. But at that point, I was so taken back and blown away by her rudeness, I wanted her to realise her actions and words were uncalled for. And maybe hurt her feelings a bit in the process. It seems the nasty old woman crossed me on a bad week. I very much doubt I would normally react in such a way. Sometimes though, these people are the straw that breaks the camel's back. And so whilst it didn't make me feel any better saying it, it did help me to realise I need to chill out. Let this week and all of it's petty stresses go. Focus on the good things in life and bear in mind the wonderful days, when I encounter only nice people. Days like the one captured in the shots below... last week at The Family Show, with great friends.